A young women now
…Everyday. I wonder why it has to be like this?
… you will alway be a part of me, I hope one day time for a real conversation, explanation, feelings and an opportunity to be your dad again… and if not… my last breathe will be ‘I love you both’
We are so much the same… you have yet to realise how much the same we are… hope one day you will ask.
Hurt, Anger… but love is more powerful!
Always, no matter what!
Things needed to change. You did not have to push me away, we could have been together.
… I miss building sandcastles on the beach with you… and forts and driving lessons and watching you grow up and become young women…
I saw you the moment you came into the world… and think about you every moment since….
Some think feelings are bad, some think you have to bury feelings… feelings make us human. If the feelings are bad, it usually means something needs to be fixed. Sometimes you don’t know what to do with feelings, some times you are told to hide them, Somethings you cannot hide from, somethings just hurt, some feelings are worth being real about, crying, screaming, shouting because the reward could bring a lifetime of peace and happiness. It took me a lifetime to learn this lesson, hope you don’t waste your life trying to learn this lesson on your own.
Adults can be like kids, kids want to be adults… growing up is very hard, just realise that we are all the same in many ways, some of us are just a little older. The older ones just want to be together and the younger ones just want to be apart. Meet you in the middle?
Sometimes making the most difficult choice is the choice that comes with the most consequences. Sometimes people do not see the whole picture, sometimes the whole picture remains hidden. For those that care, seek to understand and ask questions, they will see the big picture. Be strong and determined in all that you do, it is in your DNA to be like this.
… I am with you everyday in spirit
I am old enough to be patient, real enough to know you might never want your dad again, technology suave enough to post to the world, so all can see how much you mean to me.
This is my hope, for you, your relationships and your life. You deserve this. Settle for nothing less, DON’T give up until you find it!
I hope this will change… <3
Your Dad, your best friend, regretfully respecting your wish of silence.