A Poem for a holiday you wish could be different
Grateful for another day
Thankful for many things
Blessed to be alive
Sad for outcomes
Hopeful things will come around
Pray for forgiveness not yet found
Disappointed for lost time
Saddened for missed memories
Hurt by actions
Hardened by time
Resentful for ill intentions
Forgiving for thing not yet known
Eroded by toxic anger
Weakened by silence
Softened by kindness
Despised by expectations of stuff
Blessed by feelings both good and bad
Longing for more feelings more good than bad
Lost by emptiness parts that are missing
Stuck not knowing how to share things untold
Urged by time that continues to pass
Trying to understand ‘together’ when ‘together’ is so far apart
Trying to change when ‘how to change’ is unclear
Accused of many things only one side is clear
Damaged by words both spoken and implied
Memories that damage continue to reside
Forgiveness for things that happened must prevail
Scared by expectations and feelings not clear
Wonder where things will go from here
Living with a hole in my heart which aches more everyday
Change requires action from more that just one
Love from afar is all I can do
On this Special Christmas Day
No cards, no money, no material things
Wishes of happiness and love is all I can send
New memories together I continue to hope
Merry Christmas beautiful girls
Love dad